it isn't as hard to be happy as you're making it

I was in my leadership class at the time I wrote this awful clichéd writing, and you can already tell this wasn’t a lot of fun, and I was sickeningly bored to death with my lecturer stood in front of class, briefed the student about the class’ regulations and stuffs, which you know, I was not fascinated so much. I was much way not interested in getting know him in personal, however I sort of liking him as my lecturer, in a normal level with not much expectations, since it was the first time he taught me. Actually I was not supposed to be in his class, since the fact is I should be in the regular leadership class and the class where I was by this moment is an international one, whereby I have to use English as my major language. Oh my God, do I have to scream out or just sit around in silence like this full time English class does not exasperate me? I chose the last option. 

I was looking straight at my lecturer by this minute, and I slightly thought he would be cool, then so would I. Well, to tell you the fact, I was trying to cheer myself up, so don’t bother to take pity on me, I’m positively sucks. You probably wonder why I brought this thing out like it is a big deal, since I wrote my blog in full English, however there were some ifs and buts behind the reason why I do feel anxious about this thing beside the fact English is one of my passions in life. The biggest reason is I am not ready yet to have projects and exams in English, and the truth is I absolutely am no good at English, and I hate to face that fact. I don’t speak English fluently, and I am far from confident to keep up writing and conversing in English all the time without my dictionary nearby. I don’t even know if it is allowed to bring dictionary along in the class. Still I don’t want to scream. 

So, how was your day, people? Was everything going well as you mapped them out? Mine is okay, and I wish you were all the best state, if it could be better. I am currently feeling happy with everything in my life and I do feel content about this life, so I wish you all happiness and contentedness. 

Polaroids. I'm just trying to entertain you. I'm sorry if it didn't work out.

P.S if I seemed so much positive and optimistic in all the way, please be sure, that I wholly am not. I was thinking about bringing out my old stories from the past, but I don’t think it would be appropriate, and I don’t talk about memories, since I was terribly offended and hurt as hell just by looking back on those horrible pasts of mine. Someday, I will, and I wish everything was going to be okay in the future, and I myself, would finally let go of my pains. By the way, they were not about heartbroken things or anything coupled with romance I was talking about, but something more sensitive and sick. So people, goodbye. I’m signing off. 

Source: amalia chimera